Writing a book is so easy...

I've been thinking..

I need to write a book.. (the world must hear my ramblings!)

Now thats great.. but sadly.. I have no idea what to write.. seriously.. for the first time I am lost for words.

I seemingly only have one skill.."talking" and if thats gone then what else will I do??..well you can't class looks as a skill can you?

Only recently have people started to notice my ability to speak.. to talk off the cuff with no prompts or prior thought what so ever and actually sound like I know what I am talking about! But writing a book is a whole different ball game, can I put pen to paper and have quite the same effect?

Now if you have ever seen me talk in public, I like to tell a story, to engage the audience with a smile, movement, emphasis and overall make them feel that no matter how many people are in the crowd, that I am their best friend.

Its a skill that has opened a few doors for me in the past, and honestly I can put it down mostly to the fact that I never lie, I don't need to.. be passionate and honest, and most people will love you even if you are slightly out of your depth.

But without these visual aids, the walking around, the vocal emphasis and self confidence, how exactly will I be able to convey my thoughts to the reader.. I'm not so sure I can..

Now most would say, work out what it is that makes your speeches different and try and replicate it on paper.. but thats the problem..

I don't actually think I know what I am doing, I think in all honesty I could eternally be winging it!!

But then maybe winging it is what makes my talks interesting.. the lack of a script?!

Now to go off on a tangent slightly, there is this one person in my life thats pretty much popped up and thrown my whole plan way wide of its eventual aim..

Many people have asked me why I do this job, and I can honestly say its to change the world.. I want to leave my mark on this earth and be remembered as somebody.. but thats it.. WHY do I want to change the world and be remembered..

Now in the past I have spoken about wanting to be a beacon, to inspire others, yet I have also said that I don't like capitalism.. I would be quite happy on a desert island with no technology at all..

Now this would lead me to believe that I don't do this for money.. I do it for the thrill of it.. which is probably also why I'm not a finer details man.. I like to open doors for everyone else to walk through.. I do this for happiness not profit.

To go back to the person thats made me think of this, I can honestly say that she makes me happier than anyone or thing I have ever met or done..

And herein lies the big question.. if I do this for happiness, and she makes me happier than anything.. would I give it all up for her in a heart beat?

Now I have to say, one of the reasons I care about her so much is that I know she would never ask me to give it all up, but actually I think the answer is yes..

BUT THEN.. where would that leave me!? I'm pretty sure, my business makes me who I am, it defines me.. if I got rid of it then who would I be?  A strange revelation if there was ever one!

I think love does this to a person, for the eternal thinker.. the man who analyses every little detail, the one thing I am not prepared for is my heart. I can neither control it, or rationalize it.. the heart is a law unto itself, and no matter what the head says.. the heart does what it wants.

You see in business, my gut instinct is always right.. and I mean ALWAYS.. its actually pretty scary..when you combine that with the ability to think 10 steps ahead of the rest and to be able to find the minutest opportunity in even the darkest cloud.. it makes me a pretty formidable opponent..

So why then, can I be bowled over so easily by a girl.. be hanging on every text, be driven to the point of distraction every day.. this is not good for business!

Now I can often be found lecturing people on the head vs heart battle..but it seems I am the worst person for not taking my own advice.

Most people don't realise it.. but the head can in fact control the heart.. you just have to put it in the right situation..

Take for example the post break up boy.. heart breaking.. very upset.. he meets a girl that is the total opposite of his ex.. and BANG.. hes in love with the greatest girl hes ever met..

Unfortunately, I hate to break it to you boyo.. but its not love..

Its what I call imprinting.. its your head transferring your feelings for your ex onto the new girl to trick you into being happy.. a self defence mechanism.. and it happens to everyone at some point in their lives.. (Head 1 - Heart 0)

But I'm not in that situation.. so unless I suffer some major trauma how am I going to get over this girl.. how can I put my head back in the driving seat?

Head vs Heart..

Looks like I have found my book topic..

Why do we do this?

Now I know that sounds like an obvious question..and if you listen to the TV.. or any real person who doesn't run their own business then the answer is clear..

Last week I was at a school teaching (part of my perfect man drive) and the teacher asked the obvious question to the students "why do businesses exist?".. with the standard A++ reply of.. to make a profit..

Big round of applause.. gold stickers everywhere.. massive tick on the standard 101 education spreadsheet..

Now the thing is.. had they of asked me that very question I honestly would not have been able to give a simple answer..

*PLEASE NOTE* I am well aware that with my gift of talking utter rubbish simple was something that I would never be able to do..

..but for the purposes of the next few lines imagine I can..

Although most people would not guess this about me.. I don't actually like capitalism.. I would much rather be living on a remote island.. with no phone or emails.. no tv.. no fast food.. leading essentially a very simple life..

The thing is though.. I can't.. someone somewhere high up decided to expose me to a world which has incredible technology.. fast cars and beautiful women (the last one is debatable.. ) so I felt from an early age the need to grab all things shiny... and so at a young age I decided to run my own business..

But now I am here.. doing what it is I love.. then I find myself questioning the very reasons why it is I do this..

You see its not that I do not strive for profit.. its that when I have it.. what do I do with it.. do I spend it on me, do I waste it on material things.. or can I get more enjoyment from it by doing something else.

Now on Friday night I went out to dinner with an old friend.. the kind of friend you don't speak to in two years but can just turn on that relationship like a light switch.. and it hit me.. I do this for everyone else..not just in business.. but in life aswell..

At this point please assume I AM NOT CRAZY..

You see I realised a few years ago that if I ate a Mars bar.. it gave me a few minutes of pleasure.. but then that pleasure was gone..

BUT if I gave that Mars bar to a friend who really wanted it, I would be happy with myself for about a day or two..

Now for years I have been following this philosophy.. make your friends happy and you in turn will be happy..

Can I spend the rewards of enterprise on others, and in turn be happier than if I had just spent them on myself?

Now to take it back a bit.. the reason for me thinking about this is that at the meal on Friday, the old friend was somewhat of a blast from the past.. someone who had pretty much hurt me and thought nothing of it.. and they were asking me to forgive them.

Now my answer was this.. I have given you many chances before.. all of which you threw away.. but I will give you another.. and I don't want anything in return.. I just want to know your happy.. and in turn I was happy..

Yep.. I know what your thinking.. is he stupid (most likely yes.. ) but the way I see it, most people would have looked to profit from the situation and I didn't.. why.. because I am not in life to profit for myself..

I am here to make sure everyone else benefits from my success.. the way I see it Ill be happier that way..

Profit is important to me... just like every teacher will tell you.. but it seems my reasons for making a profit are not as selfish as some would have you think..