Writing a book is so easy...

I've been thinking..

I need to write a book.. (the world must hear my ramblings!)

Now thats great.. but sadly.. I have no idea what to write.. seriously.. for the first time I am lost for words.

I seemingly only have one skill.."talking" and if thats gone then what else will I do??..well you can't class looks as a skill can you?

Only recently have people started to notice my ability to speak.. to talk off the cuff with no prompts or prior thought what so ever and actually sound like I know what I am talking about! But writing a book is a whole different ball game, can I put pen to paper and have quite the same effect?

Now if you have ever seen me talk in public, I like to tell a story, to engage the audience with a smile, movement, emphasis and overall make them feel that no matter how many people are in the crowd, that I am their best friend.

Its a skill that has opened a few doors for me in the past, and honestly I can put it down mostly to the fact that I never lie, I don't need to.. be passionate and honest, and most people will love you even if you are slightly out of your depth.

But without these visual aids, the walking around, the vocal emphasis and self confidence, how exactly will I be able to convey my thoughts to the reader.. I'm not so sure I can..

Now most would say, work out what it is that makes your speeches different and try and replicate it on paper.. but thats the problem..

I don't actually think I know what I am doing, I think in all honesty I could eternally be winging it!!

But then maybe winging it is what makes my talks interesting.. the lack of a script?!

Now to go off on a tangent slightly, there is this one person in my life thats pretty much popped up and thrown my whole plan way wide of its eventual aim..

Many people have asked me why I do this job, and I can honestly say its to change the world.. I want to leave my mark on this earth and be remembered as somebody.. but thats it.. WHY do I want to change the world and be remembered..

Now in the past I have spoken about wanting to be a beacon, to inspire others, yet I have also said that I don't like capitalism.. I would be quite happy on a desert island with no technology at all..

Now this would lead me to believe that I don't do this for money.. I do it for the thrill of it.. which is probably also why I'm not a finer details man.. I like to open doors for everyone else to walk through.. I do this for happiness not profit.

To go back to the person thats made me think of this, I can honestly say that she makes me happier than anyone or thing I have ever met or done..

And herein lies the big question.. if I do this for happiness, and she makes me happier than anything.. would I give it all up for her in a heart beat?

Now I have to say, one of the reasons I care about her so much is that I know she would never ask me to give it all up, but actually I think the answer is yes..

BUT THEN.. where would that leave me!? I'm pretty sure, my business makes me who I am, it defines me.. if I got rid of it then who would I be?  A strange revelation if there was ever one!

I think love does this to a person, for the eternal thinker.. the man who analyses every little detail, the one thing I am not prepared for is my heart. I can neither control it, or rationalize it.. the heart is a law unto itself, and no matter what the head says.. the heart does what it wants.

You see in business, my gut instinct is always right.. and I mean ALWAYS.. its actually pretty scary..when you combine that with the ability to think 10 steps ahead of the rest and to be able to find the minutest opportunity in even the darkest cloud.. it makes me a pretty formidable opponent..

So why then, can I be bowled over so easily by a girl.. be hanging on every text, be driven to the point of distraction every day.. this is not good for business!

Now I can often be found lecturing people on the head vs heart battle..but it seems I am the worst person for not taking my own advice.

Most people don't realise it.. but the head can in fact control the heart.. you just have to put it in the right situation..

Take for example the post break up boy.. heart breaking.. very upset.. he meets a girl that is the total opposite of his ex.. and BANG.. hes in love with the greatest girl hes ever met..

Unfortunately, I hate to break it to you boyo.. but its not love..

Its what I call imprinting.. its your head transferring your feelings for your ex onto the new girl to trick you into being happy.. a self defence mechanism.. and it happens to everyone at some point in their lives.. (Head 1 - Heart 0)

But I'm not in that situation.. so unless I suffer some major trauma how am I going to get over this girl.. how can I put my head back in the driving seat?

Head vs Heart..

Looks like I have found my book topic..